stupid life

fail bk badly,
don't worry because my heart are not broke into pieces
(or maybe already turn into sand in the earlier time)

now i'm living a "i don't know" life,
pity feeling of cheating own self,
truly in dreams, and i don't know whether i should wake up,
maybe when i meet some sort crisis i'll awake in shock.

when i had target, someone keep on pursued me to give up,
when i lost target, i live in dreams and dwell deep in self pity,
life is stupid, opps sorry, i'm saying my own life,
yet i know i'm the one who allowed these happened ==
once a while, i own something, and gave up one by one,
now i feel nothing like nobody does,
stupid one to do stupid things,
but i just can't help myself to cheer up.

for why, i thought so much of "life meanings"?
how i wish i could start all over again and owning some skills,
although i know i can't,,
although i know i won't make it even if life really start all over again.

maybe what he and he said rightly,
i'm living in self pity and sorrow because of the boring life i'm having,
unfortunely i'm not the one would change or could change,
that's why i need someone to save me, seriously.

at the end, you may ignore this post, i wrote for nothing.